aMyth

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: you make me wanna

barely two weeks from now, i'll be in legal age already! yeah, i'm turning 18. and i really don't know what to feel or how to react. i'm quite confused with a lot of stuff. and basically, i just deal with it by not trying to care or by trying to look unaffected (maybe that's why i love the song unaffected by hoobastank). sometimes it just gets tiring trying to fix things in your life. there's this problem in school, family and uhhh.. yeah, include the love life too. so much for a "happy" birthday. i don't even want to celebrate anymore. i mean, wala nakong gana. i just feel tired. . . estoy cansado! estoy mal tambien. no se que yo quiero. . . (is that right spanish? i better brush up on my spanish) well anyways, it's just so hard trying to find the energy to smile. or to look forward.

i also miss some of my friends. those who are not here most especially... ram, di and hans... i really miss them. they, together with some other friends, have given me the best birthday last year. and i don't really know what to feel 'bout this year. everything sucks. a few more blows and i'm about to breakdown and just cry. i want to cry my eyes out. fudge talaga. . .

**by the way, i'm running another journal or blog.. wutever you call it in friendster... heheh.. para isahan na lang yung pagcheck koh ng account and ng blog. weheheh... it's http://kc_amyth.blogs.friendster.com/amyth/

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: neon - spongecola

hmMmM.. well, i know my last entry was sort of "bitter" or wutever. it's just that.. yeah, it's how i felt. but to see things clearly, and to have everything settled, i took the time to think. and to decide on things. i do hope i made the right decision though. i do hope... that in time, everything will turn out fine. better, in fact...

ANYWAY! heheh... i really haven't had the time to write an entry so it took me... hmmm... long enough to update my journal. school STILL is a hassle. it's killing me. hahah..

"if it doesn't kill you, it makes you STRONGER..."

and i've died a few times already... somehow, i'm still alive. so i guess i am sort of stronger.

hmMm... hahah... i just thought how my valentines went. hahah.. i dunno if i should describe it as funny, frustating or unique. hahah.. gid and i had a "fight". coz he was wanted to surprise me.. he told me his ptour out-of-town activity is from 14 to 16 of feb. so... there.. i thought he was in ilocos norte.. but no!!! surprise pala dapat! and.. things just didn't go as planned. coz i had to do something at jia's house. (ES case study).. hahah... but, it's still a sweet thing to do.. (kahit palpak) hahahha... (peace tyo by...)

haay. right now, i'm just hoping i'll have time to finish all my school work... dami! heheh... goodluck to all those whose days are loaded w/ school work.. heheh.. kaya natin toh.. har har...

Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: destiny's child - bad habit

time really does fly by that fast. i didn't even notice that san's birthday is...

...SHET TOMORROW!

shux! (panic mode) waaahhH! that really slipped from my mind. ohhHHh... sorry san! that's ok though.. celebration's still on sat. and it hasn't struck 12 yet. so i'd be able to greet her later. heheheh... anyway, happy birthday san san!

in just a few hours, you'll be entitled to priviledges of an "adult".  hahah.. although we really do get to experience these privilegdes 'coz they think we're old. (hmMmm.. is that a good thing or a bad thing?)

anyway, i've got to study for my exams... haaayy.. gudluck sken...

Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: usher - burn

yup yup! just a few more days and we'll all be back to school again! hahaha.. (thank God our classes will start on Wed. harhar!!!) it just gives me enough time to finish all my papers. 6 down.. 2 more to go...!!! hahahah.. and if i'm in the mood tonight, i might just finish my 2nd to the last paper.. i just hope i don't get sleepy. i feel bad for those peepz who will have their classes tom. (hi by.. wawa naman...)

*note lang: (may narinig akung fireworks... hahahah.. anu un? naiwan?)

anyway, i just miss kuku hans, bebe tintin, momo wyna, dodz ram, ping, camille, annie and block t! i miss waking up in the morning and having to see my room in our condo unit. (pero mamaya nyan, magsasawa nanaman aku at can't wait to go home nanaman!) hahahah! well, ayun! lately, i've been quite conscious about the food that i eat. i've been eating veggies, fruits and fish.. rarely meat. actually, i'm avoiding meat na. shet kayanin koh kaya un?? avoid foods that has lots of sugar (yes.. sweets.. desserts! my gosh!), lots of salt, carbo, fatty foods.... ang dami! and i've been trying to figure out what kinds of food are left for me to eat. which brings me to almost nothing... ano ba yan!!!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: hoobastank - escape

can't believe how long i've been sitting here in front of my laptop. my back's starting to ache... (ouch... nangangawit na talaga ako) well, that's what i get for being too good. hahah.. i've been trying to finish some of my papers so i'd avoid cramming. i hate cramming. i usually plan what i have to do. i AM kind of an oc at times. right now, i'm doing a paper on fil. that's only one out of three freakin' papers the class has to do for fil... grrr...

i'm supposed to be grounded today... (actually till the end of the vacation dapat). but i still managed to go out just this afternoon. hahah.. i'm that good. gid and i saw each other. can't believe how much i missed him already. he also gave me his christmas gift! heheh.. yeah, it is pink...

(kc: bilis! clue naman! anu gift mo sken??

 gid: basta pink!)

heheh.. it's lacoste touch of pink. wow.. nice.. there! so my day didn't really suck today. it went quite well, actually. the thing is, i still miss him. haay...

anyway, i hope things get better for two of my close friends.. i'll pray for that... i hope they fix things up. friendship has always been very important. and seeing them in this sich really sucks

----2005----

in less than 24 hours, it's another year nanaman! haaay! welcome 2005! another year for us all... it has always given us the idea of a new start.. and all those stuff. well, i do hope we all get to fulfill our new year's resolutions. goodluck to us all.. (lalo na saken) hahahah... which reminds me.. i haven't actually noted down my NY resolution.. hahha.. mamaya na.. aun!

advance HaPpY NeW YeAr!!!

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: meja - i'm missing you

*sigh*

i feel so down.. nagtatampo couz koh sken.. and i feel really bad.. yeah, it was my fault. but i really did not mean to. i've always been there for her. and i let her down.. just when she needed me the most. haAaAy... i really did not realize i was doing that.. now i hope we fix things up...

*sigh*

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: ludacris - move bitch

roses... are symbols of love

yet somehow, they are worthless

temporary beauties that only fade and die...

how sad, how pathetic...